When he called home to announce his result, the first sentence he said was, "Mom, I DIDN'T FAIL my Chinese!! I DIDN'T FAIL my Chinese!!!" Yes. I heard it loud and clear.
He sounded happy and I was somehow relieved too. At least there is an "extra" subject printed on his PMR result slip. 6A, 1B (history) and 1 D...
I have no regret to let him sit for the exam, although he didn't score well. Even though he hated the old chinese literature 文原文，he managed to understand all the 名句精華 (before the exam, i tested him and he knew every single meaning of it). To me, it is not just about the exam, it is for his lifetime usage, especially the moral in it. It should be part of his identity as a Chinese.
He told me last night that many of his friends are going to drop SPM Chinese subject, including those who scored a B in PMR. I feel sad about it. I can imagine how disappointed their Chinese subject teachers are. I know it is extremely challenging to be a Chinese subject teacher and I salute them for that.
My son used to complain about how his Chinese subject marks pulled down his aggregate and his position in class. I am sure many kids think alike. I remember once a friend told me her son will not take the SPM Chinese paper in order to get a STRAIGHT As in his SPM exam, which ensures him a better chance to enter the ivy league university overseas.
So, is my son going to drop the SPM chinese? I am afraid my answer is a Yes too. I feel that it is too tough for him and will just make him "hates" the subject more.
HOWEVER, I shall not allow him to give up on the Chinese Subject!
I have decided to let him take up the ICGSE Chinese subject (which seems to be less tough as compared to SPM Chinese). He will sit for tuition to prepare himself for it. It seems to be a good compromise, in which he will get a SPM cert plus a ICGSE Chinese subject cert. He agreed on it.
End of the day, it is not about the certificate, but about NOT GIVING UP! We are Chinese and should try our very best to learn more about this beautiful language that comes with lots of good moral teachings. It is about not losing our identity.
I am glad my son is willing to continue to face the challenge.
I am sure one day he will thank himself for that.